Firstly, I better say categorically that the title of this post is in no way designed to imply that being fat is good and we shouldn't try to lose weight and get fit, if that is what is needed!! This is what I am trying to do and will keep trying and trying to do. For as long as it takes. And it will take time (but that's another blog post).
Obviously it is important for ongoing health to be a healthy weight - and fitness is an absolute must.
But I find it is easy to beat myself up for being fat. It is as if I categorise 'fat' as a personality trait, rather than an objective physical measurement. So often I feel ashamed of being fat and at times, it affects how I feel about myself and how I relate to others.
I still experience some self loathing when I fail to achieve the weight loss I have set for myself, as if my poor character is proved by this setback. If I eat wrong, I tend to think I'm a bit of a failure and obviously, there's really no reason to keep going, you drongo.
However, one of the things I've learned since embarking on my weight loss endeavour has been to not give up. I have managed to keep on going and not to fall completely into old habits or regain the weight I have lost. But it is so easy to put pressure on ourselves to lose weight, be 'normal' and in my thinking anyway, it follows that somehow I will be a better person all round (please excuse that pun...).
But is being fat the worst thing that we can be as a person? Would you rather be a fat work-in-progress than a complete and utter, utter bitch for example??
I am reminded of a beautiful quote from author JK Rowling:
I'll leave that with you, but it certainly helps me put my health pursuits into character perspective. And with that, it takes some of my self imposed pressure off, which can only be a helpful thing - surely.