Thursday, 6 September 2012

The whole truth...

Right!  Well!  This is a distressing post for me to write, so I need your help. 
At the start of each paragraph, I will direct the reading voice in your head to adopt a certain accent*.  It will make the whole thing seem lighter and more pleasant. 
Please humour me. 
(*Anyone seen that hilarious sketch on Little Britain where the boys of Kelsey Grammar School have their teacher enliven their reading by making them read in different accents??  It's so funny - unfortunately I couldn't find it on youtube to share it with you.)

But firstly, a bit of perspective....  no one has died.  No one has even been injured physically or hurt emotionally.  So to the extent that this is a distressing post, it is really only distressing to me!!

Shall we get on?

First Accent:  American (take your pick of New York accent, Southern, mid west - I'm not fussy, just as long as you do it.)
It's week 2 of Round 3 and I weigh 102 kg.  So that means that since May, I have not only not lost any weight overall, but I have put it on.  About half of what I lost in Round 1.  *shakes head*

Posh English (think Her Maj, the high voice might be good too)
All that effort to lose weight in the first round, all that talk about changing and learning and doing.  I just lost my way and started to believe I couldn't do it anymore.  I don't know why, but I just disregarded my health and my goals and listened to my excuses.

Italian - the Godfather  (stereotypical hand gestures please)
So I'm in a bit of a pickle in terms of disclosing this in a public forum like this one.  Do I need to castigate myself, flagellate myself, hate myself, berate myself to some sufficient level of pennance.  

Do I just pick myself up, dust myself off and keep on trying??
Scottish if you will
I am choosing to do the latter.  I hope this doesn't seem as though I'm just papering over what I have done or saying it's okay.  Just that it's better to be positive than to ... well, not.  But boy, this has given me perspective.  I have learned that it is really difficult to get into a healthy mindset and I am going to do everything I can to stay in it now my head is in a good place. 
Eastern European (think 'is Don, is good')
I have learned that any weight loss or fitness gain should be celebrated - really truly.  So many times I have been disappointed with 0.5kg weight loss but you add a string of them together and it soon adds up to decent weight loss.  I think I can be very hard on myself and I want to try not to be.  But I don't want to be too soft on myself either.  It's a tricky balance.
Back to normal
I am doing well so far on Round 3 and will be working very hard not to repeat my mistakes.  I did not put on all the weight I had lost, so that is a positive.  I've kept up, indeed stepped up, the training which I love, so that is a positive too. 

So that's it, that's where I am at the moment.  I feel better for sharing this and wish I had done it at the start of Round 2 when the rot set in.  I'm a bit of a slow learner it would appear!
did you do the accents?



  1. Well I will admit I did do the accents Janie. As funny as this might sound perhaps you have been peeking through our window here because sometimes Mike and I do that. We might start talking in a different accent one night just for fun. Strange we are! Ha.

    Right (slaps thigh) to you now. That diagram you showed is oh so true. They don't call it "a journey" for nothing. You just have taken a few unexpected detours. The main thing though is that you still have your mind on the destination so that's a good thing. So get your GPS going, make sure that destination is keyed in firmly and get on that road to success. You know it can be done, your first round was a testament to that.

    So exercise is not the problem, you are acing that. Is it the food? The snacking? The portion sizes? The water? Perhaps hone it down to where the hiccup is happening and sending you off track and work from there. You know I'm here if you need me. I'll send my mobile number so you can send an SOS if you need. :-)

  2. Gees you're brave with the things you post on this blog. It's confronting to face up to where you are, but that's the most important step.

    It's only failure if you give up trying. Don't give up on you Janie. You DESERVE this xx

  3. You've done the right thing Janie. Picking yourself up and dusting off is a fantastic step in your journey. Just start again. You know what to do and how to do it - I have faith in you :) How's the clean eating been going? Smashed any workouts??

    1. Thanks Camilla - you've inspired me with your honest. Things are looking down!

  4. Keep going. You can do it. You have before and you will again. It's just bloody hard work to change the (bad) habits of a lifetime.